I'M ONLY HUMAN

I was good, so good infact, that I felt good about being good. Then I had to go and spoil it by cutting into the peach upside down cake that I made. First I cut a tiny piece and ate it, then cut another piece that wasn't as tiny as the first. Ain't that why you made it? Nope honestly I thought I could resist and I did, right up until 10.45 P.M 4th of July.

Truth of the matter is, I didn't even taste it, I didn't enjoy it, didn't need it, didn't want it. So why did I eat it? I don't know. But remember when I wrote about not letting a holiday like the 4th of July sabotage my best efforts to succeed. Maybe what I should have wrote and chewed on first is Why do I always willing to sabotage my wanting to succeed?

Oh well, I'm only human, and in my humanness with the damage already done and undoable, one thing I do know is that I don't want to do further damage by eating anything else for the evening. Because I'm already full of me hindering my own progress.

I am at times my own worst enemy. But more later.

For now however, what I'm not going to do is, beat myself over the head, no instead I'll take responsibility for what I did, and move on.
It's a journey, where I have a choice to stop and take advantage of the fact that I can allow myself to take a U turn and turn my self around.

Tomorrow is another day, another opportunity to succeed. And I will.